Day 16 – Lock Down Diaries
Day 16 – Lock Down Diaries
As humans, I think we over complicate things a lot! How many qualifications do you have? Has it given you a base foundation to understand EVERYTHING in the world? Are you only an expert in your field, or can you hold your own in any conversation out there in the world?
Before coming into the Mystery School I lived a very busy, complicated life. Now I’m just busy (laugh out loud). But it’s true!
My corporate work was very technical, with a lot of detail intensive work across three massive fields of work. So my head was always in a book.
I studied in a couple of different fields and I was lucky enough to have many great mentors and clients who really gave me access to top class systems and basically the internal workings of their multinational and international subsidiaries. I have worked with local government, the private sector, NPO’s, International Corporations and small one man band entities extensively.
All of this gave me an incredible eye for detail and it gave me a very balanced insight into pretty much every department or function in a business as I would not only develop vocational training content, but I will help each department or business unit develop detailed company policies, procedures and standard operating procedures. I basically got paid to spend hours and hours with the most interesting subject matter experts out there in the corporate world. I got to delve into their minds and capture their essence and detailed instructions into a curriculum that would be workable for their support team to duplicate or sustain the process designed by the systems engineer.
As I person, I was very complicated – physically, emotionally and spiritually. I wouldn’t have 1 of anything: I would have 10 and in every colour. Just in case. I would try to make every one in the room comfortable, happy, satisfied, fed and the list goes on. I took responsibility FOR EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE. It gave me TOO MUCH CLUTTER and complexities to manage all the time. I wanted to do everything in my life the way I was handling my corporate products and services. This simply was not sustainable.
After eight years of building my business, I burned myself out for the first time. And just to make sure that I did it properly – I went and did it two more times. Not fun, and not recommended at all. My body took a massive beating and to this day I can not sustain the long day and night hours that I used to do. To put things in perspective: I would work throughout the night, get 2-3 hours of sleep, get up, get unto a plane and fly or drive to be at the meeting at 8 am with the client. Then I will go for a full day, come home, crash for an hour, get up, feed my kids and start working again while my husband put my kids into bed. This went on for months and years on end.
Obviously again, not recommendable.
One of the biggest gifts I got from getting unto the mystical path, was the gift of insight and simplicity. I am confident in what I’ve learned over the 10 years of study at the mystery school and my 17 years of corporate experience, that I can pretty much walk into any boardroom, tackle any problem and discussion – and have it sorted out in maximum 2 days. If not completely solved – we would have a diagnostic process done and a plan or solution on the table.
The gift of understanding energy and the way it flows is this: you can unclutter almost anything, you can solve the most complex problems and you can simplify enormous amounts of data with great ease.
“As you simplify your life, the laws of the universe will be simpler; solitude will not be solitude, poverty will not be poverty, nor weakness weakness.” Henry David Thoreau
Ever since finding the mystic teachings, I lead a much happier, simple life – but that doesn’t mean that I can not relate or participate in the normal everyday life. It doesn’t mean I’ve lost touch with reality. I am just able to process things from a completely different angle, and I carry enormous amounts of responsibility a lot more lightly than what I used to. I can also make decisions more accurately and with more clarity. I don’t abuse myself and my body the way I used to – and I enjoy every minute of interacting with my clients because of that. Off course it helps to have years and years of experience, but I can definitely see in the way I complete projects and achieve outcomes for my clients – that something significantly in me has shifted. Therefore I believe, my impact on the world has changed dramatically.
“My mind was always very cluttered, so I took great pains to simplify my environment, because if my environment were half as cluttered as my mind, I wouldn’t be able to make it from room to room.” Leonard Cohen
I am still decluttering – throwing out every cupboard, drawer, shelf and I am loving it. Ever since my mind is more disciplined and clear – I can not stand clutter and unnecessary things around me. I still have A LOT of things – but it is ordered, in it’s place – where I can access it when I need it for the purpose of what I want to create.