I am Jealous

I know there are many ways to learn in this life, but I have to say, nothing so far has taught me as much clarity as my two kids. My daughter is the sporty but more reserved one and most people never know what she is truly thinking. But my son – boy, is he the opposite! With him what he thinks pretty much spills over unto his tongue and out by his mouth! He is not really bothered with social graces and sometimes I have to stop myself from sinking into the ground when I hear him make remarks! But worse part is – I can normally not fault him for what he said – because it’s the God’s honest truth!

The other day at a hockey game, he pointed at the one girl on the field and said out loud in front of the whole pavilion: “Who is that girl?”. I responded with: “It is so and so, a friend of Mikyla and her parents are sitting right here.”

His response was just: “She calls me Ratatouille, and I don’t like it.”

Ok, I think he got his point across. With me being swallowed into the pavillion seat!

This afternoon, I dropped him off at another friend’s party. Off they went and apparently had a ball! Upon my return to pick them up, he comes up to me and the first words out of his mouth was: “Mom, I am so jealous.” When prompted why, it’s because the birthday boy has an amazing collection of Star Wars lego figurines and he got a couple of really nice new sets from guests at the party.

Now I reminded him that he happens to have an upcoming party too. But this had me thinking about how much cleaner relationships will be, if adults would take the time to first of all identify what they are feeling and secondly, express what they feel, without guilt or shame for what they feel!

Especially when it comes to jealousy – for most of us, we were taught that you are a bad person if you are feeling jealous of others. Meantime, there is nothing wrong with feeling a jealous pang – I mean you are feeling it – it’s no use denying it! It’s about how you react towards the person you are jealous of. That is what makes it negative! But there is nothing wrong with feeling jealous!

I always tell my people in the Empower Thyself class, that feeling something is not the problem. We are all human, we have feelings and we all have a different and complex relation to our feelings! Feeling the feeling is not the problem, reacting negatively to that feeling is the problem. What do I mean by that? Well instead of beating myself up for feeling jealous of someone else’s success, I started changing my relationship to my own feelings of jealousy! I realised that if I’m feeling jealous of something that someone else have done, it MUST MEAN that I have that success or marker in my soul contracts too! And I started using my jealous feelings as a reminder of soul contracts that I have forgotten about. (I suppose you can also call it “ambitions” or “goals” if you want to use a more secular term).

This completely changed my relationship with the emotion of jealousy and I am not scared of it at all anymore! Instead of beating myself (and the person I’m jealous of) up when I started to feel that sting, I started getting exited about it – because it meant I had that potential stored in me!

Are you able to identify your feelings straight away? Are you willing to express how you feel, regardless of outside reaction or rejection of those feelings?

For me this was quite a game changer in myself! Instead of resenting people in envy, I started celebrating inside myself as I was now connecting with potential inside me that I’ve been blind to before! I Started using it as motivation to start to take action WITH FAITH to make it happen for me too!

I am quite proud of my 9 year old boy! He was able to do it on a whim and really – he has very little concern over who approves of his feelings or not! I’d say he’s pretty free in his inner world!

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Love and Moonlight,

Leonie