Day 11 – Lock Down Diaries
Day 11 – Lock Down Diaries
Very little could calm the storm in my heart today. There are lots of messages going around and even though I am not much for fear mongering, I do feel in these uncertain times, one should not be completely ignorant of how close to an apocalyptic scenario something like this pandemic can play out to be.
First there is the very real fear of me or someone in my family, getting infected with the virus. Then, as a parent, you want to be able to feed your child for as long as it is needed, and with the current shut down, I can not see that agricultural supplies can last indefinitely – and import/exports are not on the cards as an overnight option. As a third layer – if the food supply to the masses dries up – where will the food come from? Safety and security in South Africa has always been a big challenge, but it can reach catastrophic heights during a situation like this.
Suddenly, the interruption in my kids’ school semester, the broken pipes in the kitchen and the incomplete driveway doesn’t seem such a big priority or bone of contentment between me and my husband anymore. Suddenly we have to potentially look a much bigger devil in the face. While we are drawing with wax crayons, cooking meals and enjoying an extended “Easter Holiday” – this reality is not the same for more than 60% of the South Africa population. But how am I dealing with this fear? Am I projecting this as conflict unto my immediate family members? How are the majority of South African’s handling the couped up stress and uncertainty of the situation?
“A further sign of health is that we don’t become undone by fear and trembling, but we take it as a message that it’s time to stop struggling and look directly at what’s threatening us.” Pema Chodron
In times like this I have found my best way of coping with stress and dealing with the fear to be:
- Clearing my space (getting rid of stagnant energy)
- Breathing exercises
- Sensual connection with my partner
- Crystal healing
- Doing service for another
- Burning essential oils in the room
- Mantras and Affirmations
- Keeping a white burning candle in my home – on at all times (to signify the flame of hope that will always burn in my heart)
This helps me to discern between real threats, concerns and also which monsters deserve my time, engagement and resources. These techniques helps me ground and it helps me to remember who I truly am – and that I am bigger and stronger than any problem or challenge in my life. I came to earth, ready, prepared and with all the knowledge I need inside. I have within me the authority and the wisdom to overcome the obstacles in my path.
“Freeing yourself was one thing, claiming ownership of that freed self was another.” Toni Morrison
May we find freedom from our fears, grounding in the knowledge of who we are, and may we endure and keep going, no matter what our circumstances, because this collective challenge is a part of each and everyone of our evolutionary purpose on the planet today. That is what we signed up for. May we find the courage and the strength to face and overcome our worse fears, may we overcome and have personal victory over fears, the past and the future.