Day 4 – Lock Down Diaries

Day 4 – Lock Down Diaries


It happened. My daughter came and asked me to do crafts for the 1000th time this week. I got all the items out, placed it on the table in front of her and asked her what she wanted to create. She sat there like a zombie. Literally.

No amount of prompting, inviting, encouragement or even agitation in my voice could help her “see a plan” in front of her. The more I spoke, the more she went quiet. Dead quiet. Like her voice just silenced.

I asked her what her next step was going to be to create…. silence.

I asked her what she wanted to create… silence.

I asked her to list what she had in front of her…. silence.

I asked her how many item she’s got in front of her… she finally responded by counting 32.

She started to tear up. Tears rolling down her face……. wait a minute… I know my daughter… this is not normal. She hardly ever cries……….

Ok… minus the 1000’s of beads in front of her – she had 32 real items to create with. I presented it to her, that she had thousands of different options (and combination options) in which to try to arrange the resources in front of her. If she wanted to, she could create something that is beautiful to her….. again, I was met with dead silence.

  1. This was going to be a long day.

An hour later I find her in my room and I ask her about what happened. Why the sadness? Why the upset as I tried to help her to create something she asked for to be created? Obviously at this time already I knew Spirit was talking through me with her! What a metaphor for our lives as humans! So many things to see in the mirror of our relationship with our Creator!

I ask her again – “why does your heart hurt – I am trying to help you create anything YOU want to create?”. And off course I get the answer that falls right from Spirit into my Soul. “But mom – I don’t want to do it alone! I miss my friends! I want to create but with them!”

And right there, right there I understood what was at the bottom of all the pain of the human race. We want to create – we just don’t want to do it alone.

That is why rejection hurts so much, that is why isolation is so hard and why we are so broken if we don’t have somewhere to belong. That is why LOVE is a basic need for our physical survival! Without love we will die!

Two hours later we had Houseparty application setup and it’s been 20 minutes of them chatting and laughing away. They are connected – my child is happy and she has given me inspiration to find ways of healing the above in my own heart, post this apocalyptic event in our lives.

Albert Einstein said: “Although I am a typical loner in my daily life, my awareness of belonging to the invisible community of those who strive for truth, beauty and justice has prevented me from feelings of isolation.”

We are all in this together. Been in it together from the beginning of time. We had just forgotten. Namaste.




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