Day 14 – Lock Down Diaries
Day 14 – Lock Down Diaries
NOT AFRAID OF DYING
I for one, am not afraid of dying. I’ve had a good life and there is very little about my life that I regret doing. Do I want to die? Honestly, I wouldn’t say I would be particularly excited to know that I have to depart right now. Reasons are not only because I want to spend as much time as possible with my family – I am afraid of not being able to do all the things I came to do! I am afraid of unfinished business. I am not as much afraid of dying and leaving them – I know one day we will all be united in another dimension.
I would however, hate to move to other dimensions, knowing that there are things I could have done in the physical to help myself and to help others. And the potential that I missed out because of my unwise choices!
I am not afraid of burning in hell – but I am afraid of meeting a soul in “heaven” that I could have helped, and I didn’t, because I was so absorbed in my own selfish existence, that I couldn’t look past myself and my circumstances to see their pain. Worse, not even extend a hand to help a soul in suffering.
Many times people think I am too driven, too “pushy” or dynamic, too hard, too soft and too this and too that. My urgency for saving souls comes from one place, and one place only:
- We don’t know if we will be here tomorrow – we only have today. I learned this the hard way as a young girl when the person I loved most in my life passed away in a car accident. One moment I was talking to him on the phone and a couple of hours later his sister phoned me with the devastating news.
- It is a lot easier to change things in the physical than what it is to change things when you go back to Spirit (think of the movie Ghost, where the one subway earth dweller yearns for a smoke). Think of the amount of energy it took to kick a empty cool drink tin! You are here in body for a reason – you have purpose, you have contracts to fulfill and things to do!
I think this virus, like any other historical disasters or mass-threats to human life, is teaching us that we only have this moment, we only have today to create from, and we are not guaranteed tomorrow as we would like to arrogantly believe. Today, this moment is a gift and opportunities – even though there might be plenty, may not come around more than once for a certain individual! You never know when your line is drawn.
So people ask me: “why are you so driven”, “why are you always busy”, “why do you create work for yourself”, “why are you always doing everything in bulk”, etc. etc.
Answer is simple – because I am determined to squeeze as much juice (joy, lessons, experiences, laughs) out of this life as I possibly can. I am determined to help as many souls as I can. Why?
Because I too, was helped out of what was the deepest darkest pit imaginable.
Because I have got contracts to fill, I have experiences to gain.
Because I have a creation to manifest one day, and I want it to be the very well best version of “heaven” or paradise it can be.
And I don’t want to break any agreements with any person that I made as a spirit (before coming to this earth). I honour and respect my fellow travellers and co-creators too much!
Thank you Mr. Ramaphosa for another 14 days in Lock Down. My heart is so sore for every struggling business person out there. I try too take deep breaths of prayer for provision, to pray for my own business to make it through this time. But I will use these new 14 gifts wisely. I will squeeze the juice out of every day. Like the flavoursome, ripe lemon it is: I will make lemonade, lemon meringues, virgin mojitos and fresh salad with lemon shavings out of it! I will use every day to its maximum and I will create something nourishing and sustaining out of the time we are given! I challenge you to amidst the chaos, the fear and the uncertainty – do the same!